i guess it's a big let down talaga when you realize your ex has finally found someone he can be truly happy with. it's just weird to feel weird, that's all. funny also that i can still say to myself that if he falls, i'd still catch him. it'll be funnier,though that there'll probably be three of us na mag-aagawan to catch him. hehe. i'm sure there'll be more people willing to catch him because he is a very nice person. it was really hard for me to stop loving him dati kasi nga he was such a good person. there was really nothing to hate him for that could've made it easier for me... well there was one, he stopped loving me na. but of course, it wasn't his fault. i wonder if he still cares for me. he visited this weblog once lang ata... so i guess it's ok na for me to write about him here. [well..... most of my angsts were about him naman din....] although i know i don't love him anymore- it's just weird that i haven't found anyone better yet. that comforting word he left me with... "you deserve someone better" crap, it's not happening yet. i guess i don't deserve to be happier? i don't know.

so, why am i writing this bull about him?

i don't know. i regret lang siguro having known him as i've known him.
it just opened me up to a perfect world where i can no longer be in...
that sucks. sana hindi na lang ako nakarating doon....

wala lang- nainggit lang ako dun sa "new found love" nya. hehe. yun lang.

anyway, this is just one of those angsts....