Been sending 2-5 resumÈs everyday for two years now. Online jobsites like monster, creativehotlist, aiga and yahoo have job openings which perfectly fits my credentials and qualifications. Response is 1:25. Out of those who responded to me, 1:10 interviewed me on the phone or have asked for my actual portfolio samples. The rest, they either thanked me for my interest or i am on their file. Tough luck. One actually wants to hire me in LA with all the sponsorhip and all... but the rate they are offering me is way too low. And with all the global outsourcing happening in the US.... it's more likely that i am going back home in september.

I have a job waiting for me in manila actually. A new position. I don't want to feel bad that I am not going to enjoy the luxury of what america has made me enjoy for 3 years. My experience here taught me so many things. These are all on a personal level. Nothing that made my career go further... NO, it only took me farther.... farther away from home. Do i like my life here? Given the scenario, setup and condition i am in right now, i have to honestly say, NO! I can't live like this forever. Not this way. If I can only start all over again on my own. I wish i can stay.

I am stressing out on this. I want to go to the edge. I want to push all the way i can. I don't want to leave any stone unturned.

One call yesterday and today made me want to go an extra mile. I'm glad for that call... that took my blues away. N is my second wind. Thank you. I love you.