i don't know what got into me. suddenly, i'm out of nowhere. i'm just out there, spacing out.

why are men so hopelessly unromantic? from those i need those sort of things, syet! nothing. pero, naman.... from those ahhh.... uhmmm..... sila naman itong... ahhmmm... uhmmmm..... bakit ganun?

i know what i want but i can't GET what i want. everything seems so hopeless now. parang walang bukas. parang........marikina. putcha! pati ba naman dito sa blog ko i can't say what i want to say thinking na people would judge me? and nababasa nila 'to??? fuck! what's the use of this goddamn blog if i can't say what i feel?

i am in love.... but..... i don't think he'll ever be who i want him to be in my life. parang... i've been there, done that, and i don't want that anymore. parang he's the same specie as the rest of them. no offense to him.. but, i don't believe in this anymore. he's too far-fetched na ayoko nang abutiin. he's just so there it hurts so much! damn it!

i don't want to hurt!--- but i'm hurting na!

ayoko na!