Hmmm....
I got a very interesting "comment" today... someone just told me that he wants to make me happy because he thinks i am unhappy...and hmmmmm.... that's why he wants to marry me?
Dumbfounded as i was, i can't believe someone would actually think i am such a helpless creature that i need saving. What an impression i give. Deep inside i despised that comment because nobody have a clue on what happiness is for me. He said that each time he talks to me, i give this aura of not being happy at all... with my job, with my life, etc. So maybe this guy doesn't have a clue what i want in my life, therefore rendering me a damsel in distress. Or maybe, he doesn't know his own life to think i am unhappy. Or that he thinks that being single at 38 is such suffering.
I would've passed some good opportunities that crossed my path in the past, and that i MIGHT have regretted most of those. I have made decisions in life that i thought would be for my own good, or that was the BEST for me. I could've been wrong to choose this life i chose now, but i have never regretted each single decision i made in the past. I don't have to explain that i chose what i have now... just funny that a measure of a person's happiness is if they get married or not... if they got a family or not. Makes me think how everyone would fare NOW from all the questions they've asked me why i am still single.
I actually don't have an answer why i am still single til now. I did have relationships that would've ended up to marriage... but just didn't. I still FEEL of course, i still dream of a person who would fill my soul to a T. My heart jumps and skips still to a person i like most of the days, and makes me sad those same days too. But i can't get my heart to surrender for someone who would not make me feel what my heart desires.
Nothing to really get defensive about... just made me think a bit to write about it.
Dumbfounded as i was, i can't believe someone would actually think i am such a helpless creature that i need saving. What an impression i give. Deep inside i despised that comment because nobody have a clue on what happiness is for me. He said that each time he talks to me, i give this aura of not being happy at all... with my job, with my life, etc. So maybe this guy doesn't have a clue what i want in my life, therefore rendering me a damsel in distress. Or maybe, he doesn't know his own life to think i am unhappy. Or that he thinks that being single at 38 is such suffering.
I would've passed some good opportunities that crossed my path in the past, and that i MIGHT have regretted most of those. I have made decisions in life that i thought would be for my own good, or that was the BEST for me. I could've been wrong to choose this life i chose now, but i have never regretted each single decision i made in the past. I don't have to explain that i chose what i have now... just funny that a measure of a person's happiness is if they get married or not... if they got a family or not. Makes me think how everyone would fare NOW from all the questions they've asked me why i am still single.
I actually don't have an answer why i am still single til now. I did have relationships that would've ended up to marriage... but just didn't. I still FEEL of course, i still dream of a person who would fill my soul to a T. My heart jumps and skips still to a person i like most of the days, and makes me sad those same days too. But i can't get my heart to surrender for someone who would not make me feel what my heart desires.
Nothing to really get defensive about... just made me think a bit to write about it.
posted by Aisa at 10:52 PM
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