Eric

6 months ago, my mom told me that Eric, my boyfriend 18 years ago for 2 years, had a heart attack. It didn't surprise me at first because he was kinda not healthy already 18 years ago. He was kinda chubby and like me, eats unhealthy food all the time. my mom told me that he lost some memory and can't do his normal job anymore. He's also a graphic designer like me and we met in Tritech Design Studios, and was with the original IntoArt Graphics management staff when we started our own design agency. My mom told me that he can no longer function as he did before, and forgets what he was doing in his computer and all that stuff... so he wasn't given much design projects anymore because of that. ANyways, 2 weeks ago, my mom told me that he had another stroke. His half body is paralysed and is in the hospital now.

Geeesh, he's only 6 years older than me... maybe 4? i think he was 1 year older than my brother... 1964, so that's 4 years... hmmm.... kinda sad really. He was that one person who was persistent that we get back together again so many years after we broke up. I think he wooed me for 10 years or so but i never really had the heart to take him back. He married when i came here in the usa and i was really happy for him. Now it makes me sad that at his young age, he will leave a wife behind already. Keep thinking to myself, it could've been me. They have no kids yet, so that probably made me feel better...

If that happened to me... i mean, i am thinking now.... BAH! i do not want to think. i keep seeing myself if the same thing happens to me... i'd probably quit job and take care of my husband 24/7. but then... i hope i have money to do that.

Just sad. Love. Love. So sad to love.