i really don't know what the proper mindset i should have right now. i am confused with a lot of things.

1. after replying to the email sent to me 2 days ago, he sent me again a
brutally frank reply. enough to give someone a severe migraine. he's a pathetic creature that i wonder how he can sleep at night. i won't post it here anymore. it's kinda rated R. LOL. i would want to reply again and be really sarcastic. i figured, he can't do this to every employee who wants to move on with their life. geeez. but then again, i wonder if he's still worth my time and effort. i still do not know if i want to waste any more of my wits.

2. i'll be homeless at the end of the month. basta.

3. i asked a very big favor from my uncle. and i feel stupid to have asked help from a kamag-anak. pero, kinapalan ko na lang mukha ko. now, i have to be ready for whatever he would throw at me in the future.

4. i don't understand myself anymore. i seem to be influenced by traits american now. geeez.... hanging out with angsty people. see what i get?

5. a lot of people really don't understand why i am here in the US. and i don't need to explain why. hurtful words were hurled to me by my boss this morning. my previous object of affection still doesn't believe why. my other co-worker still thinks it's because of my previous commitment to my former manager. my previous manager still thinks it was because of her. hmmmmm... they still have no idea what my real reason is.

6. and a lot more........

7. i miss na my honeybabe.


oh well....... i can't wait to move to LA. i want to have a new life.