*whew*
the holidays passed. frantic. i was both too lazy to move or in a frenzied deep trance.
job wise, i am still in a confused state. i am glad i only had 1 week without a job to feel like a total loser. if it dragged on.... ayayay! i don't know. one i have now is a drag. i surf all day at work... and kicks me off after lunch to do actual work. job there is so easy and unexciting.nakakatamad. my first time to be an in-house designer. too many bosses. too many opinions. funny how i am surrounded with people who thinks they needed to give a creative opinion on all the things i design. the left-brainers would act they are better than a lowly "artist" who only creates an email ad for them, or a magazine ad.... or a stupid directory for them. To them, i am but a person who makes pretty little ads to promote their show. The boss, though, is different... he believes a good AD would make or break for the company. And i like it that he values my opinions. But it is sad. To be thrown into an element i am not comfortable with. But.... but..... i get to do what i want to do... just design. No creative pressures, my very own office and nobody to impress my creative output to....
So i accepted their job offer in a less than compensating way... moneywise and portfolio wise... 4 hours or less after i accepted the permanent position, here comes a call from a design studio who asked for an interview and my book... wow!!! i still can't believe my resume and online portfolio would still catch any attention in such a bad marketing economy. happy that i am still getting interviewed. sheeesh. i am one blessed person considering all the odds i have. still keeping my options open but at least i am safe and good for now. happy mak here.
i am also pre-occupied with a thing i can't go into details right now. someone is making my mind in a frenzy. i miss stop signs and turns and exits and even missing my apartment once.. i drove pass my apartment one night thinking of someone. geeeeshhh. talk about MAJOR DISTRACTION. i am totally in awe with someone i don't even want to be with. wala.. crush lang. nyehehehe. ewan ko ba. right now... i don't want to think na i can have someone to mess up what i am enjoying right now. i just love this solitary life i dare not share with someone. it's like i am in a perfect lifestyle and i don't want anybody ruining it. maybe too... i am in that phase where everything is how i want my everyday life to be and for someone to get in will mess it up for now. funny also how i was so ready and willing to have n share that part of my life with a few months back. ganun land siguro yun. love takes me where i dare not go. hehehe.
alimasag is now temporarily closed. getting some stuff and people settled in for the time being. in truth, i can have it back to normal the way before and be in total control again.... but i am not up to it anymore. my passion for alimasag waned for reasons i don't know. my heart is still with that site but the will to do more has waned. actually.... i lost interest in a lot of other things too.... so maybe.. i am just lazy now. tired. hehe. my friends are angry i don't go out too much anymore. got depressed for a while there. hehe.
so there.
the holidays passed. frantic. i was both too lazy to move or in a frenzied deep trance.
job wise, i am still in a confused state. i am glad i only had 1 week without a job to feel like a total loser. if it dragged on.... ayayay! i don't know. one i have now is a drag. i surf all day at work... and kicks me off after lunch to do actual work. job there is so easy and unexciting.nakakatamad. my first time to be an in-house designer. too many bosses. too many opinions. funny how i am surrounded with people who thinks they needed to give a creative opinion on all the things i design. the left-brainers would act they are better than a lowly "artist" who only creates an email ad for them, or a magazine ad.... or a stupid directory for them. To them, i am but a person who makes pretty little ads to promote their show. The boss, though, is different... he believes a good AD would make or break for the company. And i like it that he values my opinions. But it is sad. To be thrown into an element i am not comfortable with. But.... but..... i get to do what i want to do... just design. No creative pressures, my very own office and nobody to impress my creative output to....
So i accepted their job offer in a less than compensating way... moneywise and portfolio wise... 4 hours or less after i accepted the permanent position, here comes a call from a design studio who asked for an interview and my book... wow!!! i still can't believe my resume and online portfolio would still catch any attention in such a bad marketing economy. happy that i am still getting interviewed. sheeesh. i am one blessed person considering all the odds i have. still keeping my options open but at least i am safe and good for now. happy mak here.
i am also pre-occupied with a thing i can't go into details right now. someone is making my mind in a frenzy. i miss stop signs and turns and exits and even missing my apartment once.. i drove pass my apartment one night thinking of someone. geeeeshhh. talk about MAJOR DISTRACTION. i am totally in awe with someone i don't even want to be with. wala.. crush lang. nyehehehe. ewan ko ba. right now... i don't want to think na i can have someone to mess up what i am enjoying right now. i just love this solitary life i dare not share with someone. it's like i am in a perfect lifestyle and i don't want anybody ruining it. maybe too... i am in that phase where everything is how i want my everyday life to be and for someone to get in will mess it up for now. funny also how i was so ready and willing to have n share that part of my life with a few months back. ganun land siguro yun. love takes me where i dare not go. hehehe.
alimasag is now temporarily closed. getting some stuff and people settled in for the time being. in truth, i can have it back to normal the way before and be in total control again.... but i am not up to it anymore. my passion for alimasag waned for reasons i don't know. my heart is still with that site but the will to do more has waned. actually.... i lost interest in a lot of other things too.... so maybe.. i am just lazy now. tired. hehe. my friends are angry i don't go out too much anymore. got depressed for a while there. hehe.
so there.
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