10lbs after...
*sigh* I am really getting FAT. hahaha. It's funny that I am learning how to cook. Really funny, if i think about it. What's funnier? I am getting good at inventing dishes. Puro imbento, pero matsalap naman. i think. Eversince i moved in with my bruhang roommate, i tend to eat more.
Update ko daw lablayf ko... eto na. hehe.
I pushed away the only thing in my life that kinda "mattered". I knew for a long time that our relationship will NEVER work already. The first time i realized that was after 3months of going out with him. I really, really, really, really liked him a lot at first. Mataba. LOL. He wasn't this skinny first time i met him, he used to be kinda chubby :D :D Ngayon, payat na sya. Well... when i realised i really don't like him to be my BITTER-half, we just kinda dated, all together, we dated for 3 years siguro. We called it exclusive-dating. We're just into fights when we're together, he is kinda demanding. Funny thing, we really don't talk about anything at all. Trivial things that rarely go deep at all. so... there. BUt i miss him too. may pinagsamahan din naman kami. He was the only thing that made me feel i am still alive, and i pushed him away for good. I am not sure if i was wasting my time on him. I wasn't even sure if i was happy when we were together.
Totally unrelated above... i keep thinking, am i wasting my time now all the more? if i spend time with someone knowing it's not going anywhere... am i really wasting my time? it's as if i have better things to do. or there is an alternative. *sigh*
I am also contemplating and prepariing myself to go back home... for good. Seems that it is very hard to spend too much money on visas and stuff. I am getting tired of all this.
Drat. yan ang buhay ng walang magawa sa buhay! Puro kalokohan lang sa internet. I think i am having a mid-life crisis. LOL. Hell, i do not want to live to 100, so i am past that midlife thingy. HEH.
Update ko daw lablayf ko... eto na. hehe.
I pushed away the only thing in my life that kinda "mattered". I knew for a long time that our relationship will NEVER work already. The first time i realized that was after 3months of going out with him. I really, really, really, really liked him a lot at first. Mataba. LOL. He wasn't this skinny first time i met him, he used to be kinda chubby :D :D Ngayon, payat na sya. Well... when i realised i really don't like him to be my BITTER-half, we just kinda dated, all together, we dated for 3 years siguro. We called it exclusive-dating. We're just into fights when we're together, he is kinda demanding. Funny thing, we really don't talk about anything at all. Trivial things that rarely go deep at all. so... there. BUt i miss him too. may pinagsamahan din naman kami. He was the only thing that made me feel i am still alive, and i pushed him away for good. I am not sure if i was wasting my time on him. I wasn't even sure if i was happy when we were together.
Totally unrelated above... i keep thinking, am i wasting my time now all the more? if i spend time with someone knowing it's not going anywhere... am i really wasting my time? it's as if i have better things to do. or there is an alternative. *sigh*
I am also contemplating and prepariing myself to go back home... for good. Seems that it is very hard to spend too much money on visas and stuff. I am getting tired of all this.
Drat. yan ang buhay ng walang magawa sa buhay! Puro kalokohan lang sa internet. I think i am having a mid-life crisis. LOL. Hell, i do not want to live to 100, so i am past that midlife thingy. HEH.
posted by Aisa at 8:44 AM
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