Man! All the things you can think about when you're on your solitary self. Geeez. I am smoking more now. I have my freedom soar to its height. i get to smoke inside my apartment.

the reason why i got to think of crazy thoughts before was because i smoked outside all the time. and when i have nothing else to do but smoke... i get to think-- really hard. i seem to remember all the things conked up inside my heart, all the things i have to do, all the things i haven't done yet, all the things i ought to do, all the things i shoould be thinking of........ but for some reason, when i'm inside and doing something else aside from smoking.... i am pre-occupied with the TV show i am watching, the game i am playing in my comp, the chore i am currently doing, etc. But when i am outside... man!!!! i get crazy! but then.. i consume almost a pack each day. my bad! my bad!!!! i hardly smoke during office work hours though. so many things to do out there. i just can't seem to figure out which is worse though..... smoke more or think more. nyehehhehehehe!

so anyway...... i'm half glad that things are still going my way.... but i am basically, happy where i am right now. i am happy. well....... trying to be. i am just not used to this SOLITARY life just yet. i was pampered all my lfe. grrrrrrr.... and i never realised that until now. i had a good life back in manila. ahhhhhhhmmmm.......