i'm in that same state again where i go back to square 1. (not about j, by the way!)

it's frustrating that no matter what i do.... nor say will be different. ok... no matter how i care. it bothers me that a (a as in asshole) doesn't realize what efforts and sacrifices i do for him. i think i am caring too much already... what the fuck! well.. i thought (yea, i thought again) that he cares. damn it. i am totally at a lost here. damn it.. i didn't have to care. he's the most arrogant, insensitive and chauvinist pig i've ever met in this world. and to think he is in my thoughts all the time. damn it! you so stupid, mak!

LOL. just ranting!