*sigh*

Grrrrr.... too much work!!! Can't blog anymore. LOL. But i still play online games. HEHE. Found this new game wherein i don't have to be at a certain time and don't have to rely on other people. HEHE. Mwuahahaha! But yea, still my gaming time is cut in half.. if not 3/4s of my life. Hmm... what to write, what to write??? Hmm.... well, J is still in the shadows of my life. He's confusing my wee and puny mind. Seems like he's not giving up on me that easy.... (how sweeeeeeeeet!) but i still can't figure out how he can factor in my life. Damn men! Why is it so hard for men to say what they really want? or what they really feel? I've exhausted all comprehensible words that would mean "What the hell do you want from me?" and still he won't say what. Apparently, he wants to be a part of my life without me being in his... or that..... he just wants to hang out. Damnit. Iam too old for this. LOL. At this stage in mylife... just say it. It won't come from me, because i basically know what i want from him... NOTHING.

hehe... 'bout this guy i really like naman.... I have also exhausted everything the part where i give a hint that i LIKE him very much but still won't show ANY sign that he feels the same way. He won't even let me know that he CARES a bit. LOL. Funny really. and really STUPID of me that i can actually feel this way for him and he doesn't know it. So stupid of me. This has been going on for close to 2 years now and really going nowhere. I think i have done my part already. I think this is ENOUGH HINT that he is not interested into pursuing anything else than what we have right now. BAH. i said that already first time i sensed he didn't like me. but yea.... i was hoping. Women! Bah! so stupid! I am saying goodbye now to this stupid emotions